December is almost over ._.

December,

lot of story happened in this month.

sad, happy, unpredictable, etc

all is unforgettable moment

be better than before for 2014

I know it's too early but

I just wanna say

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE :D

all the best for you all

keep spirit and success!! 

<3

university

Alhamdulillah 

my day

1 DESEMBER 2013

entah kenapa gak tau gara-gara apa,

tapi tanggal di atas itu udah spesial banget buat aku.

Selamat :)

aku dapet ini

BIG THANKS TO GOD :)

akhirnyaaaa

setelah sekian lama aku sekolah di sekolah boarding school atau bisa dibilang asrama. akhirnya aku berhasil ngelakuin apa yang aku pinginin dari dulu. berhubung udah kelas 3 nih yaa (sombong) pingin banget sama yang namanya NGABUR! gimana enggak coba, orang udah hampir 3 tahun gak pernah ngelakuin hal lumrah ini bagi anak asrama apalagi dengan status SENIOR (ini lebih sombong lagi).
akhirnya tepat hari Senin, 25 November 2013 akhirnya aku berhasil ngabur dari asrama jalan ke Lembus buat beli sepatu sekolah (?) hahahahahaa gakpapalah yang penting ngabur lah yaaa~ wkwkwkwk

jadi gini ceritanya,
aku baru pulang sekolah, masih pake seragam sekolah lengkap sampe kaos kaki (sepatunya udah dilepas soalnya kan masuk kamar masa pake sepatu sih) trus tiba-tiba ada temen aku masuk ke kamar ngajakin pesiar tanpa surat alias ngabur! hahahaa yaudah karena aku juga pengen jalan kan setelah sekian lama gak jalan, dan aku butuh banget sepatu baru, yaudah deh aku mau mau aja.
aku ke lembus minjem motor temen aku yang cowok, dan aku gak hapal banget jalan samarinda. untung temen aku anak samarinda, so pasti dia udah tau dong yaaa jalan samarinda. dan jalanan macet. dan aku jadi bete. dan itu lama banget dijalan. panas. rembes. gembel.
sampe lembus ke kamar mandi dulu cuci tangan cuci muka dan ngebaikin jilbab. trus jalan-jalan muter-muter nyari sepatu dan lain - lain juga kebutuhan temen aku itu. keluar dari lembus kira - kira jam 17.15 dan mampir beli batagor dulu kan yaa dan lanjut balik ke asrama. berangkatnya sih bisa dibilang lama. iya 1,5 jam di jalan. tapi pulangnya aku berhasil bawa motor dari lembus sampe asrama cuman kurang lebih 30 menit aja. hebat kaaaaaaaaannn!!!! hahahaha maklum anak baru :p dan itu ngelewatin banyak banget polisi. sawan sudah pasti. secara itu motor tebengan, gak bawa STNK nya, gak punya SIM, dan kita pake seragam putih abu - abu. iya sudah. tapi alhamdulillah gak ditilang u,u *sujud syukur*

over all,
this is my story about how I feel at first time "ngabur" hahaha :D

nb: kalo mau ngabur pake surat ijin keluar 15 menit sama pengasuhan, sebelum jam 3 (sebelum pengasuhan dan satpam ganti shift) dan balik jangan sampe lewat batas sore, maksimal jam 6 lah yaa. jadi minta surat 15 menit sama pengasuhan A baliknya udah pengasuhan B jadi gak ketahuan deh kalo tadi ada ijin keluar :D (begitu juga dengan satpam. GoodLuck!! hehe :pv

Grenade

Easy come, easy go
That's just how you live, oh
Take, take, take it all
But you never give
Should've known you was trouble
From the first kiss
Had your eyes wide open
Why were they open?

[Pre-Chorus:]
Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked
'Cause what you don't understand is...

[Chorus:]
I'd catch a grenade for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I'd jump in front of a train for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
You know I'd do anything for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Oh, I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same

No, no, no, no

Black, black, black and blue
Beat me 'til I'm numb
Tell the devil I said "Hey" when you get back to where you're from
Mad woman, bad woman
That's just what you are
Yeah, you smile in my face then rip the brakes out my car

[Pre-Chorus:]
Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, yes you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked
'Cause what you don't understand is...

[Chorus:]
I'd catch a grenade for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on the blade for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I'd jump in front of a train for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
You know I'd do anything for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Oh, I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same

[Bridge:]
If my body was on fire
Oh, you watch me burn down in flames
You said you loved me, you're a liar
'Cause you never ever ever did, baby

[Chorus:]
But, darling, I'd still catch a grenade for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on the blade for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I'd jump in front of a train for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
You know I'd do anything for you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Oh, I would go through all this pain
Take a bullet straight through my brain
Yes, I would die for you, baby
But you won't do the same

No, you won't do the same
You wouldn't do the same
Oh, you'd never do the same
Oh, no no no

skyscaper

Skies are cryingI am watchingCatching teardrops in my handsOnly silence as it's endingLike we never had a chanceDo you have to make me feelLike there's nothing left of me?
You can take everything I haveYou can break everything I amLike I'm made of glassLike I'm made of paperGo on and try to tear me downI will be rising from the groundLike a skyscraperLike a skyscraper
As the smoke clearsI awakenAnd untangle you from meWould it make you feel betterTo watch me while I bleed?All my windows still are brokenBut I'm standing on my feet
You can take everything I haveYou can break everything I amLike I'm made of glassLike I'm made of paperGo on and try to tear me downI will be rising from the groundLike a skyscraperLike a skyscraper
Go run run runI'm gonna stay right hereWatch you disappearYeah ohhGo run run runYeah it's a long way downBut I am closer to the cloudsUp here
You can take everything I haveYou can break everything I amLike I'm made of glassLike I'm made of paper
Ohhh
Go on and try to tear me downI will be rising from the groundLike a skyscraperLike a skyscraper(Like a skyscraper)Like a skyscraperLike a skyscraper

layaknya menggenggam

we do something like we hold a thing.
khususnya ini untuk sesuatu yang khusus banget untuk kita.
mempelajari dari pengalaman pengalaman sebelumnya.

intinya adalah, jangan OVER PROTECTIVE!
mau cewek atau cowok gak ada suka di over protective - in sama sekali.
analoginya aja gini :

misal cowok itu adalah berlian, dan kita yang cewek adalah sebuah tangan. apabila kita menggenggam berlian itu terlalu kuat (over protective) maka yang ada tangan kita sendiri yang akan merasakan sakit karena tertusuk ujung - ujung berlian tersebut. dan berlian di dalam pun semakin kuat karena di tekan.

jadi kesimpulannya,
kalo kita nge-over protective-in cowok, maka yang ada cuman kitanya yang sakit sendiri, dan si cowok tetap pada pendiriannya dan dia akan semakin kuat untuk .......... yaa mungkin ini tekadnya untuk bahkan ninggalin kita, karena dia merasa gak nyaman banget karena udah ditekan kayak gitu. dan kita yang cewek bakalan kehilangan dia seutuhnya. karena berlian itu satu, sekali di ambil yaudah, gak bakalan ada sisa berlian lagi di tangan kita.

sedangkan kalo analoginya cewek :
misal cewek itu adalah pasir pantai yang putih bersih, dan yang cowok adalah sebuah tangan. apabila tangan menggemgam pasir itu terlalu kuat (over protective) maka pasir putih itu akan keluar dari tangan lewat sela - sela jari. dan tangan tidak akan merasakan begitu sakit karena pasir itu sangat lembut. kalaupun ada itu hanya rasa lelah mengenggam. namun, sekuat - kuatnya tangan menggemgam pasir putih tersebut, masih ada sisa pasir yang tertinggal di telapak tangan. dan itulah perasaan cewek.

jadi kesimpulannya,
kalau cewek yang di over protective - in sama cowok, si cewek bakalan ngerasa risih atau capek karena digituin, tapi biar gimana pun, cewek masih punya perasaan. dia gak bakalan ninggal gitu aja karena masih ada perasaan nya yang tertinggal di cowok. itulah kenapa banyak cewek yang masih betah atau tahan banget sama cowok yang udah nyakitin dia. bisa karena dia emang sayang banget sama si cowok, atau karena dia gak mau liat si cowok itu sedih atau kenapa - napa. mungkin buat cowok itu adalah suatu hal bodoh yang dilakukan si cewek karena mau - mau aja. walau gak semua cewek sekuat itu nahan perasaan sakit karena si cowok yang memperlakukan dia begitu. tapi di sisi lain, ada perasaan cewek yang emang gak bisa dijelasin. cuman bisa dipahami tanpa harus dijelaskan.

saran aja nih yaa,
buat kalian - kalian yang baca post ini dan sedang dalam keadaan "in relationship" aku pesen sama kalian untuk jangan terlalu over protective sama pasangan kalian, atau kalian bakalan nyesel di akhirnya karena udah kehilangan dia yang selama ini kalian banggakan, dan kalian rela habiskan waktu kalian buat mereka. karena di dunia ini hal yang tak bisa kembali salah satunya adalah waktu. jadi bijaksanalah kalian untuk mempergunakan waktu yang kalian punya. karena sekali kalian gunakan waktu itu, ia tidak akan pernah kembali untuk kalian. habiskan waktu yang kalian punya untuk melakukan hal - hal yang baik dan benar, pilihlah orang - orang tertentu yang memang berdampak positif untuk hidup kalian. habiskan waktu bersamanya, kalian mungkin akan selamanya bahagia, asal dijalani dengan tulus, ikhlas, dan di ridhoi oleh Allah SWT.

watch out GIRLS!!!

I know that I am single now

I know that I was broke up with him

the boy at my Senior High School

well,

my Junior.

but, girls..

there's something that I want you to know

that I 

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and

okay, I think that you already know what I mean,

so, watch out you steeps Girls!

I WARN YOU

sincerely,

the owner of  his heart.

♥

words saying

Alhamdulillah :")

BIG THANKS TO :

ALLAH SWT

Bapak & Ibu di rumah

dan 

temen - temen

sama semua yang udah ngedoa'in 

Alhamdulillah,

baru aja selesai UTS, padahal hasil juga belum keluar semua,

tugas juga masih ada yang belum dikumpul,

tapi udah dapet pegangan masuk universitas..

memang sih swasta, tapi ini beasiswa :)

doain tetep sukses yaa kedepannya :)

buat kalian yang baca ini semoga sukses yaa :D

love,love,love <3

masa serius

ini beneran udah harus belajar banget yaa?

ini aku beneran udah kelas 3?

beneran mau UAN bentar lagi?

serius mau kuliah?

eh banyak banget yaa yang harus di baca?

apa? diinget juga?

yaa ampun, ini udah gak bisa main" lagi?

dan bentar lagi mau pisah?

oke, stop!

untuk semua pertanyaan di atas itu,

jawabannya cuman 1,

dan jawabannya adalaaaaaahhhh.

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IYA!!

sumpah yaa ini beneran bukan main main,

ini serius,

yaudahlah yaa jalanin aja..

everythings gonna be alright :)

grows

I feel like the first time we met

we talk

and we share a stories of life

then,

we know each others

and maybe right know

we have a same feeling

anyway

I love this moment 

:)

so touching me

:")

watch this!!

look, hear, and learn :)

fragile?

mungkin akhir - akhir ini terlihat rapuh

sangat rapuh

dan sekarang 

no more time for love

goodbye

I was grow up

and I realize

that we're at different world

sincerely,

ex

22

t feels like a perfect night to dress up like hipsters
And make fun of our exes, uh uh uh uh
It feels like a perfect night for breakfast at midnight
To fall in love with strangers uh uh uh uh
Yeaaaah
We're happy free confused and lonely at the same time
It's miserable and magical oh yeah
Tonight's the night when we forget about the deadlines, it's time uh uh

I don't know about you but im feeling 22
Everything will be alright if you keep me next to you
You don't know about me but I bet you want to
Everything will be alright if we just keep dancing like we're 22, 22

It seems like one of those nights
This place is too crowded too many cool kids
It seems like one of those nights
We ditch the whole scene and end up dreaming instead of sleeping
Yeaaaah
We're happy free confused and lonely in the best way
It's miserable and magical oh yeah
Tonight's the night when we forget about the heartbreaks, it's time uh uh

I don't know about you but im feeling 22
Everything will be alright if you keep me next to you
You don't know about me but I bet you want to
Everything will be alright if we just keep dancing like we're 22, 22

I don't know about you, 22, 22

It feels like one of those nights
We ditch the whole scene
It feels like one of those nights
We won't be sleeping
It feels like one of those nights
You look like bad news I gotta have you, I gotta have you

I don't know about you but im feeling 22
Everything will be alright if you keep me next to you
You don't know about me but I bet you want to
Everything will be alright if we just keep dancing like we're 22, 22

Dancing like 22, yeah, 22, yeah yeah

It feels like one of those nights
We ditch the whole scene
It feels like one of those nights
We won't be sleeping
It feels like one of those nights
You look like bad news I gotta have you, I gotta have you

we can't stop

It's our party we can do what we want (no drama)
It's our party we can say what we want (Mike will made)
It's our party we can love who we want
We can kiss who we want
We can sing what we want

It's our party we can do what we want
It's our party we can say what we want
It's our party we can love who we want
We can kiss who we want
We can sing what we want

Red cups and sweaty bodies everywhere
Hands in the air like we don't care
'Cause we came to have so much fun now
Bet somebody here might get some now

If you're not ready to go home
Can I get a "Hell, no!"? (Hell no)
'Cause we're gonna go all night
'Til we see the sunlight, alright

So la da di da di
We like to party
Dancing with Molly*
Doing whatever we want
This is our house
This is our rules

And we can't stop
And we won't stop
Can't you see it's we who own the night?
Can't you see it's we who 'bout that life?

And we can't stop
And we won't stop
We run things, things don't run we
Don't take nothing from nobody
Yeah, yeah

It's our party we can do what we want
It's our party we can say what we want
It's our party we can love who we want
We can kiss who we want
We can sing what we want

To my home girls here with the big butt
Shaking it like we at a strip club
Remember only God can judge ya
Forget the haters 'cause somebody loves ya
And everyone in line in the bathroom
Trying to get a line in the bathroom
We all so turned up here
Getting turned up, yeah, yeah

So la da di da di
We like to party
Dancing with Molly*
Doing whatever we want
This is our house
This is our rules

And we can't stop
And we won't stop
Can't you see it's we who own the night?
Can't you see it's we who 'bout that life?

And we can't stop
And we won't stop
We run things, things don't run we
Don't take nothing from nobody
Yeah, yeah

It's our party we can do what we want
It's our party we can say what we want
It's our party we can love who we want
We can kiss who we want
We can sing what we want

It's our party we can do what we want to
It's our house we can love who we want to
It's our song we can sing if we want to
It's my mouth I can say what I want to
Say yeah, yeah, yeah, ehh

And we can't stop, yeah
And we won't stop, oh
Can't you see it's we who own the night?
Can't you see it's we who 'bout that life?

And we can't stop
And we won't stop
We run things, things don't run we
Don't take nothing from nobody
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, ehh

JUST GIVE ME A REASON - PINK

Right from the startYou were a thiefYou stole my heartAnd I your willing victimI let you see the parts of meThat were not all that prettyAnd with every touch you fixed themNow you've been talking in your sleep oh ohThings you never say to me oh ohTell me that you've had enoughOf our love, our love
Just give me a reasonJust a little bit's enoughJust a second we're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love againIt's in the starsIt's been written in the scars on our heartsWe're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love again
I'm sorry I do not understandWhere all of this is coming fromI thought that we were fine(Oh, we had everything)Your head is running wild againMy dear we still have everythin 'And it's all in your mind(Yeah but this is happenin ')You've been havin 'a real bad dreams oh ohYou used to lie so close to me oh ohThere's nothing more than empty sheetsBetween our love, our loveOh our love, our love
Just give me a reasonJust a little bit's enoughJust a second we're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love againI never stoppedYou're still written in the scars on my heartYou're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love again
Oh tear ducts and rustI'll fix it for usWe're collecting dustBut our love's enoughYou're holding it inYou're pouring a drinkNo nothing is as bad as it seemsWe'll come clean
Just give me a reasonJust a little bit's enoughJust a second we're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love againIt's in the starsIt's been written in the scars on our heartsThat we're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love again
Just give me a reasonJust a little bit's enoughJust a second we're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love againIt's in the starsIt's been written in the scars on our heartsThat we're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love againOh, we can learn to love againOh, we can learn to love againOh oh, that we're not broken just bentAnd we can learn to love again